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[01 May 2008|12:47am] [ mood | numb ] [ music | nothing ] i tried. i failed. it's over. i'm available. post comment

I'm happy... surprised? [16 Mar 2008|10:25pm] [ mood | thoughtful ] I’m wrapped up in your mercy I’m hanging on your thread Baby, missing you just hurts me I’m messed up in my head And I, I want to be Unbroken Unshattered Just maybe put the pieces of my heart back together I’m wide open Don’t know where I’m going I’d give anything and everything just to be unbroken Unbroken I want to walk across your memory Like water underneath the bridge Don’t want to want what you can’t give me I’m falling off the edge And I, I want to fly Erase these dreams inside me Sleep where they can’t find me Leave this life behind me And I, I want to be Unbroken Unshattered Just maybe put the pieces of my heart back together I’m wide open Don’t know where I’m going I’d give anything and everything just to be unbroken Unbroken post comment

so... [16 Mar 2008|04:22pm] [ mood | accomplished ] Okay... so.. I'm getting an annulment and I'm here with the kids enjoying the sun and the beach. And its really nice being here without Tony. I'm so relieved that this relationshit is finally over. I never want to see or speak to him again. Fuck you for being an asshole and a liar. post comment

[15 Mar 2008|06:12pm] [ mood | drunk ] I'm getting divorced as quick as possible. Anyone interested in fucking? post comment

[05 Mar 2008|12:49am] [ mood | disappointed ] woo. marrrrrried for two years. post comment

[17 Oct 2007|05:29pm] [ mood | crushed ] Last night was great. Tony let me know that he's not in love with me anymore. So... I'm available to anyone who's interested in dating a slightly chubby bald guy with three kids. I'm a top and a bottom. post comment

[27 Sep 2007|02:08am] So... we're back together. Of course. It was just a case of the baby blues and me being slightly insane. I'm sorry, Tony for being an ass. post comment

[17 Sep 2007|05:52am] [ mood | numb ] He left me. Tony left me. I just gave him a beautiful daughter and he left me. I'll never forgive him. Ever. post comment

SHE'S HERE! [02 Sep 2007|04:18am] [ mood | exhausted ] Sidney Shayla Lovato-Madden September 2, 2007 3:27 am 7 pounds 3 ounces I love you, Tony post comment

[01 Sep 2007|11:15pm] [ mood | nervous ] Wow.. it's been ages since I've updated this thing. I never even mentioned that I'm pregnant. We found out on Easter morning and it's been a pretty uneventful pregnancy. We haven't had a fight this entire time. And he's never left my side. He's taken such good care of me. Life is pretty awesome. I'm more in love with Tony than I've ever been. Ryan and Gabe's little sister is going to be here very soon. In fact, Tony's going to induce me tonight so by this time tomorrow, we'll be holding Sidney in our arms. Or "Sinny" as Tony and Ryan like to call her. In honor of our new addition... a tribute to our love. Enjoy! So..yeah... I'm giving birth tonight or tomorrow. Benji. Madden. Is. Giving. Birth. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! post comment

[20 Jun 2007|12:39pm] [ mood | ecstatic ] happy birthday tony i love you and i've got the BEST present for you. we'll both enjoy it! post comment

[13 May 2007|11:09am] HAPPY BIRTHDAY, ROO! post comment

[16 Apr 2007|01:20am] [ mood | apathetic ] i've learned a hard lesson. i know who i can count on and who i can't. it was an eye-opening day for benji madden. post comment

[13 Apr 2007|10:32am] [ mood | aggravated ] i can take care of myself. post comment

[08 Apr 2007|11:20am] [ mood | ecstatic ] [ music | ode to seratonin... nightmare of you ] i was an ass to tony. he didn't deserve that. and i'm so fucking sorry for what i did. i don't deserve him. he's beautiful and perfect. and he never fails to excite me. seriously, he's my favorite person on the face of this earth. why is he always right? cause he's a better person than i am and i trust him with my life. he's the only person that truly knows and understands me. and he loves me whether i'm being weak or strong. and i need him more than anything, even if i'm afraid to show it sometimes. happy easter, kids... go find some eggs. they're a sign of fertility. *giggles* post comment

[06 Apr 2007|03:05am] [ mood | lonely ] another negative.. i'm giving up.. i'm going on tour. i don't know when or if i'll be back. i got my own bus for me and gabe and ryan. see you kids at the show. post comment

[05 Apr 2007|06:53am] [ mood | depressed ] [ music | i seriously hate all music now ] why can't i ever tell him how i really feel? post comment

[03 Apr 2007|06:54am] [ mood | sad ] i can't even begin to tell tony how sad i am that i'm not pregnant. i love him so much and i feel like i'm failing him. and now that i think about it, this is the first thing he's asked me to do since we've gotten together. post comment

[27 Mar 2007|04:35pm] [ mood | apathetic ] [ music | i actually hate music these days ] and that would be a negative. yeah. post comment

[25 Mar 2007|01:55pm] [ mood | moody ] i feel blah. just blah. post comment

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